8 July 2010

Today I have spent the day discovering what happens to people when they stop consciously making efforts to feel good. So well at this moment I am here, but that is okay I can move...

So what has been happening, well for one NADA!!! Things in the office have been going on okay but in truth, well.. I have been having these amazing experiences... AMAZING the last few days, and today for some reason I cannot bring myself to a good feeling place as a result well I am here in this blah place... I realise from my contract extension that being in this blah place is not soooo ... all bad, I can be here for a while and that is fine... really very fine.. I can stay here and still I will get the results I desire...

The only thing is that I an not getting those super sexy amazing experiences.. I miss them, and I know I don't have them because.... well.... I miss them!!!!!! the only thing that this means is that I have to unravel this if I am to move... from here I need to change the way I am thinking!!! :-( because I have been here sooo long, I cannot remember how to do this... I am very far vibrationally.. that is the thing... I had gotten soo used to getting my happiness from these people, now it is time to get my happiness from ME!!! ( I just had a flashbulb moment there...) The thing that is going on, is that I am getting my happiness from them... now it is time to get my happiness from me.. or at least stay in a place. OOh Crap!!! now manifestations of my imaginings are coming true and it is crappy... WOW I can do this I can change my mind... I am sure I will manage... I just got me to the dumps and it is a little difficult to get out..

Tomorrow is another day.. all this will be well.