Day 4

Here is me at the beginning of day four of my big as diet. Today though I noticed a small improvement, with the suite I am wearing today, not so much someone outside of myself would notice but it is good enough for me and I am happy. You see I knew for sure, I would notice some sort of change if I continued faithfully for 4 days, and I have been walking faithfully, (I even forwent going to the salon in order to walk this morning). So Things are good still. I’m still on the wagon.

I’ve been thinking about varying my diet, because it has been almost exactly the same for the last 4 days, adding some bananas sometimes but mostly not.... but maybe I should not, leave things as they are, though to be honest with you right now, I can feel myself sliding off the wagon a little, I just got paid and I want to CELEBRATE!!!! I want to pay off debts and have roast chicken and some Sangria for dinner! God please help me

Lunch

This is me this afternoon, am I being too much? (Probably) but you see I have spent the afternoon discovering many new things. first I discovered that something I thought I had, some money actually, I don’t have it and it is money I felt I really needed, so well with that disappointment I was really tempted to use food to make me feel better about my situation. so I just stood there, feeling really sorry for myself and imagining just how much better I would be feeling if only I could have something to eat! But I just stood there for a while and tried to thank God for this situation., and try to be really grateful for this situation, though it was not making me particularly happy, but it will just have to. I think though that this is for the best. even from a worldly point of view. there was a moment there that I really just wanted to give up and take a shot of whiskey. so well ‘thank you God for my new situation and thank you also that I did gorge my face because of this situation’

I had instant noodles and some water. according to the packet, it had 341 calories. but I didn’t walk like I said I would. I don’t know how that affects me. Will let you know.

Also my ultra tight dress from this morning fits better now.... mostly due to the fact that the seems are coming apart!

Life decisions

This is one of the pictures that convinced me to shift a little weight, that and all those clothes that refuse to fit!

I really must learn to make self portraits if this is to work at all!

Weight loss programme.

Diet

It is now day two of week 2 of the great big diet! So far so good, I have not cheated or overeaten or had anything outside my diet. I feel good, though it is only 10.14am of day 2 and this morning I had a shock when I realized that the dress I tried on last night specifically because I wanted to be sure it an outfit that fits and can therefore be worn this morning, turned out to be too small anyway. (I’m wearing it by the way). But that’s okay.

On the good side, I didn’t buy breakfast today, got a little tired of low-rent attitude and the extra fat I get from the restaurant I like, so it means I will be carrying breakfast from home, (I find it impossible to have breakfast at home, I’m not really sure why, maybe it’s cause I get hungry so quickly when I do. Saturday though, I had breakfast at ‘Java’ it was really perfect, I really like it there and the bread is also pretty cool. I’ll do that again if I can.

So today so far,
Breakfast
1.5 scones with jam
2 cups of coffee, 3 sugars each
1 small banana.

To be honest I don’t how many calories these are; I should try foods that I already know the calorie content because this guessing is just not helping and while it is not the gorging I normally do, still...

On exercise well this morning I walked again for about one hour. By the time I was in the office I was pretty exhausted and was considering the advantages of having a car and going to the gym. It is something I think about all the time, I think it is time I did something about it. Yesterday I walked for about 2.45 hours which is cool. For me I think it normally takes about 1 week for results of my weight loss, so this means that last week might not have been as effective as I thought. Why mainly because the clothes are still really tight, what I am working on at the moment is to ensure that I have more clothes to wear. I currently have 5 outfits for the weekday but that is not adequate, I don’t want to buy more because I don’t want to encourage me to keep this weight and well it’s expensive! I want to fit into the clothes I already have!!!

Week 1 in pics

This is me as I seriously contemplate the issue of loosing weight

Panic!

Help! A dress I tried on to make sure it fit for today is too tight this morning! I'll try again tomorrow, hopefully I will not discover an outfit that I have readied for work is too small! boo hoo hoo!

After noon

So I went for my walk this afternoon during the lunch hour. It went well for the most part. I could not help but notice my very ‘African’ as I walked by. It took a total of 45 minutes or there about. It sort of made me feel good, and I really felt like I could really keep with this routine, or at least something like it. I would like to take another photo of me this evening to gauge progress. I know it might not work very well to take photos everyday to monitor progress, but it is important for me to see what is going on. I think now that before when I said things were not that bad, I might have been mistaken, things are that bad. From a distance it is okay but up close, things are rather think!!!! It is time to yoyo the shrink!!