What is happening today....

There is this guy... we will call him Fred... to protect the innocent. I used to be in love with Fred. I think he was the first guy I ever admitted to being in love with. Then at some point in my life, it became clear to me that it was possible for me to marry Fred... but I became to much too soon and it ended without much drama...

It has been my wish for a while to link up with a dude. I have been told that in order for a dude to love me, I have to love me... and well I have been trying... to love me... and now, especially in the last 2 weeks, I can think of me and feel good things.. really good things.. about me and I love that! I really really appreciate that.

Now, back to Fred. Today I am in the vortex, and I was thinking of all those good things that watching Pootie Tang did for me.... I was reciting things from the movie.. you know “Sa da tay!”, “Wa-da-tah!”, and I posted it on my profile, and we had an interesting long exchange on Pootie Tang phrases, which was super fun.....

Then later in the evening, a friend starts chatting to me about him..... and she asks me if he remembers her, and then, I ask him if he does... and then we go on and then he asks me out for coffee.. !!!!!!   !!!! So now we have a date for next Tuesday. Can you believe it!! I am aware that he is not the one for me, BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT , he is a guy I like that used to drive me crazy, who I got crazy on and who just asked me out for coffee!!!!!

I like this because there is a guy that currently I am crazy for, who I am, have been crazy on.... (plenty of mind stalking).....

BUT...

Also I have been making a conscious effort to think good thoughts of my ex. Today I was totally in the vortex the whole day... and that works wonders as always!