So weightloss....

Since I was like 9 years old I have wanted to weigh less than I did... at anytime. I have always felt like I didn’t like my weight at the time and I wanted to be smaller, even when I was smaller... (I know that because I have since become bigger... much bigger..)

Recently, in the last 6 months, I have become bigger than I have EVER been... EVER!! And that has for the most part not been easy for me.... I spent a whole lot of time having trouble with it.....

Then about 4 weeks ago I decided that I am going to feel good. I am going to work at feeling good about me. I am going to find a way to feel better about me, just for the sake of it, and I am going to spend more time imagining me smaller, you know as a possibility (virtual reality-ing basically)... ( I have had great success with that when it came to my coaching thing... so I decided that I was going positively “virtual reality” slimming. I have been walking, I have been making the effort to walk, eat more veggis, drink more water etc, but to be honest my weight has stayed the same. I remembered that when I was much much younger, (much), I used to go out dancing often and I was quite small. In fact sometimes I would even look smaller after a night out.... so a few weeks ago, I thought how great it would be to go out dancing... spend like 6 hours on the dance floor, and I really enjoyed the thought... then last week I really wanted to, but didn’t and when I didn’t manage I didn’t give myself a hard time, I just said that is cool, at least I really want to now, so the next step is really near, then... this week past week, on Friday I thought about how much I wanted to go out dancing, so I ate, and at around 9.30pm I decided that it was a good time to go.. and I did and it was sooo great!!! I mean really great. I danced so much, it was nice to feel that, “okay I can do this here”! I really enjoyed myself. And I want to do that again. Maybe the 2 days you know Friday AND Saturday, maybe even take a day off and do it again then!!! 

Back to weightloss... you know on Sunday I dressed to go somewhere... and I could not believe how great I looked in what I was wearing!! Wow! I was actually smaller!! That was great. That was the most fun I have had loosing weight in a long time...